My DI my Life

i dont know why is it happening to me and di and why cant i express it to others, well the reason is others wont understand and the only person in the planet to understand me is my di, i know i have done mistakes actually a lot of them and if some one else was in di's place would be fed up by me, but my di is special but even she is human and she too has level of endurance but i guess my repeated mistakes has crossed her level of endurance and i guess she is doing right, and i have decided not to irritate her any more, My heart cries when i write and feel the present situation but still i dont want  to irritate my sis, i dont want to hurt her again due to my mistakes and i guess leaving her for her happiness will be better,talking abt me, i am missing her verry much and right now concentrating on anything is tough , the basic thing is till when i can be with out my sis, i will be and once i cant then suicide is best idea, have already made plans for that, bye tc see you

I am idiot

well now it is proved i am the worst brother in this planet and i dont deserve anyone in my life, i hate my self to the core! and my life is just worst like other ppl's who are about to die. Well this is private but i also know no body will read it and i need to post something some where. So here it begins my sis i love her very much and she does me too and she always try to protect me , well my exams are at head and she did what every caring sister does, changed my fb password, and for 2 whole days she didnot chatt with me, i knew the reason were my exams but still i dont know like everytime when she doesnt reply, i get in tension i got this time too but i couldnt call up her parents wont like it so i decided no msg her but she didnt reply i got in more tension and to see her status i hacked my own account and when di found out this she was very sad and i doubt she would trust me again, well no body will do but i need to explain her that i am nt lying but i am true ,i was in tension,looks like nothing is right in my life and i guess sucide is best idea. Good bye

Thursday,feb 03 2011, Two coins

Unlike other days this day was quite different, well at least for me cant say about others...well the mrng part was almost same as other days but the evening part was quite good and yeah some where bad too ,let me guess, because i am lucky or idiot i dnt know..... in a way i am happy that i have frnds and sis to care abt me on the other hand just had a cold war between another frnd. For all you guys who were sleeping during the history class Cold war is a state of war in which ppl dont physically fight but they argue as if they are fighting. Basically as everyday dad came to wake me up in mrng and as expected he slept ,lol , ya he comes to wake me up at 5 am but as my plan he ends up sleeping till 8 am.Thats just like heaven for people of my type, well he comes to wake me up because i have exam going on and seriously i hate these and in fact i think that these shd be banned or something ,why did god create these or its again stupid mind of our humans. Yup saying it that humans tend to Kill me.....or any students with their Exams. But was about to miss that school bus but managed to go to school :( and it happens sure it happens with everyone .Save paper Kill exam is my moto for environmentalist LOL :).Talking abt exams i have exam tomorrow but with double combination called Computers and Biology, Can anyone survive it, many can but not me....he he laughing actually preparing to fail :) have lots of experience there. Well today came earlier from school and wasted a 100 bucks on this auto....man then came home and sat on Students paradise and idiots wonderland , and i may agree that i am part of them. MAtter of fact i always get to talk to my fav starts of my only prog that i watch on tv Called Sajan re jhoot Mat bolo and i just love that show but in the next minit i noticed that My frnd hates me , just because we have different idealogies so what...cannot halp him, nor my anger but miracle i did control it :) Well thinking of ever speaking to him again , and for now i am gonna go and study ,so bye take care and see you , though i know no body will be reading this :)